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Why I Had “The Talk” With My Daughter Before I Was Ready

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THE TALK WTIH DAUGHTER

I had the talk with my daughter and I wasn’t ready.  She was watching a video on a popular family You Tube channel called 8 Passengers. At first I was mad, until I saw the video myself.

I never thought I would have such an adverse reaction when it came time to having, The Talk with my daughter. Most of time I over share, over comment and overly insert my unsolicited opinion. For the most part, I’ve always been comfortable talking about uncomfortable topics, sometimes to a fault, so when my daughter asked me when I was going to give her The Talk (that’s exactly how she put it), I was completely taken back and uncomfortable with what I was feeling and thinking.

It’s way too soon, I thought! She just turned 8 in February (fyi- it’s October). Seriously, how did she know about this already? She never really questioned what Tampons or any other feminine products were, or even how babies are made.  I asked her where she heard about it and her answer shocked me.

“From 8 Passengers on YouTube”, she said.

We’ve actually  watched this channel together many times. One thing Gianna and I like to do is watch DIY’s and family channels on YouTube. This family has six kids and share many of the ups and downs families often face. I love watching them, however I’ve never seen the video she was talking about.

You hear it often in parenting circles and fellow mom friends, “If you don’t talk to your child about ____, they will learn it from YouTube”.

Pssh! Not me, not my kid!

To be honest, I don’t remember how I responded. It was at night and I probably blamed it on her little brother who had to be put to bed.

 

The Talk with daughter

This is one of the moments I went back to when I realized it was time for me to accept she is growing up.

My Feelings Towards 8 Passenger Mom

I’ve got to be honest with you, 8 Passenger Mom, I was a little angry with you. Why would you put that on You Tube!?  That is a private discussion between a Mother and Daughter. Plus, having this discussion with my daughter seemed like a few years out. Now, because she watched your video,  I’m being forced to have it with her before I was ready.

Did you catch that? Before I was ready. This whole discomfort with me having this discussion had nothing to do with my daughter. I never thought about her curious little mind or innocence of wanting more knowledge. Whether I liked it or not, she was ready and it was time.

Back to me being angry at 8 Passenger Mom. The second I dropped my daughter off at school the next morning, I searched for the YouTube video on their channel. It was pretty easy to find and I couldn’t believe how many views it had – 1.2 Million!  About a minute and half into the video, she talks about what prompted the discussion. It was because her daughter started asking questions. Then, as she went on to say how old her daughter was, my anger dissolved into love and compassion. While fighting back tears, she said her daughters age.  She is eight.  The same age as my daughter. At that moment all my negative feelings disappeared. As she cried, I cried with her. I knew EXACTLY what she was feeling and why. As mothers with daughters, we all know this time is coming. Unlike solid foods, potty training or even the first day of Kindergarten, THIS moment when we have this talk with our little girls, hurts. I’m not talking like a hurt that stings for only one second. It’s deep and it lingers. I still feel it even after 2 weeks of having the talk. I’ve already cried three times writing this post. It’s the hardest reminder that they are growing up.

How Our “Talk” Went

Like the Mom on 8 Passengers, I’m not going to go into details on this. The same day that I watched the video, she asked me about it again while at my parents house. My Mom took her out to lunch and it came up again. My Mom told Gianna the story when she first told me. She told me a period was something at the end of the sentence. Like Gianna, I knew it was more than a dot.

I surrendered to the idea that this had to go down – today. When we got back to the house I told my husband what was going on so he can keep our  wild 2-year old monkey entertained.  Confession: I poured myself a glass of wine and went into her bedroom.

She could feel my hesitation and I told her that the reason it wasn’t easy for me, had nothing to do with the topic. This was just another sign that my baby girl was getting older. I let her sort of guide the discussion by her questions and I made sure to answer them all. We talked about puberty, emotional and physical changes, pimples and pads.

Apparently some of her friends already had the discussion, so naturally it spurred her curiosity. Just when I thought our talk was over she asked how babies were made and a gift from God was not the answer she was looking for. I told her that married couples love each other and have this thing called, sex. Not surprising, she knew of the word but not its meaning. I kept it really simply and light. As she gets older, I’ll be able to explain more but for now, our talk answered all her questions and eased her curious little mind.

Whew. This was tough to write.

If I was denying that it was time to have the talk with my daughter, I know other Moms out there are saying the exact same thing. The time will be different for us all, but some things to consider when deciding if it’s time for you are – older siblings, older close friends or family members, how much exposure they have to movies, You Tube, etc. I’m sure there are more, but this is our experience.

Thank You, 8 passenger Mom for being so transparent, vulnerable and honest about your experience. I feel you and thank you for making me feel like I wasn’t alone. Sorry I ever judged your decision for making that video. Here I am writing about it and it feels sooooo good to get this out and share my story and personal struggle. Keep making videos and I’ll keep writing.

 

Love,

Jessica

October 8, 2017
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Teaching Kids To Be Grateful – Guest Post at Delicately Balancing Life

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Hello Momma’s!

This week I’m over at Delicately Balancing Life talking about GRATITUDE. Specifically, Teaching Kids to Be Grateful. While I’m not dishing out advice, I simply discussed what worked for us.

Before sending you off to read the article I would love to tell you a little about Lindsey. She is the creator behind Delicately Balancing Life.  Her blog touches on so many topics that we Womenlive through everyday. She talks about marriage, parenting, food/wine and career. Lindsey and her husband just welcomed a beautiful baby girl! She graciously asked me to be a guest blogger on her site and after seeing her site and reading what she’s about, I jumped on the opportunity.

Here’s a little snippet : 

” How can I un-spoil my child? No lie – this is EXACTLY what I entered into the Google search bar. This search led me to many articles about instilling gratitude in our children. While there are many parenting articles about teaching children the art of gratitude – this is not one of them.

Where did the gratitude go?

I’m not really sure it was ever there. To put it bluntly, my husband and I pretty much bought our daughter whatever she wanted. I rationalized it by indirectly blaming my parents. My 10-year old self will tell you that I grew up hearing “no” all the time. Of course, this was not true. I just didn’t get everything I wanted and it was mainly due to financial constraints. ” …… continue reading.

As I was writing this post I couldn’t help but think, this can and should apply to us, the parents.  It was a gut check for me. If I’m being honest, My behavior wasn’t in congruence with what I was trying to instill in my daughter. Teaching kids gratitude isn’t just about  instilling it in them, we need to display thankfulness and gratitude ourselves. Check out my post on how I found my joy and gratitude.

There are many studies that show the benefits of living with gratitude. Apparently gratitude is the key to joy. That’s a strong and interesting statement to think about. Joy isn’t found in fancy cars, money or a big house. Joy is the outcome of being grateful for the things, people and opportunities we presently have – RIGHT NOW. In this moment.

Read,  Instilling Gratitude In Our Children – What Worked For Our Family 

August 25, 2017
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My First Month as a Stay-at-Home Mom

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My first Month as a stay at home mom

Being a stay at home parent was something I never considered. That was up until last year. In my 20’s I saw nothing exciting nor fulfilling in the Stay At Home Mom role. I was never the one jumping in line to “hold the baby” and even though my daughter was the love of my life, there was no way I was trading in my heels for an all day affair of baby talk and diapers.

Then at 31 I was diagnosed with breast cancer. From that point it was all about treatments, surgery and simply surviving for the next two years. The emotional dust from everything started to settle around three years after my cancer treatments and after having my little miracle man.  I started to feel a mis-alignment with what I was doing and what was bringing me true joy.

Right around the same time, the company I was working for started going through some changes. These changes started seeping into my department towards the end of last year and unless you’re completely disconnected from your own reality, you pretty much know what’s going on. You just don’t know exactly when. My position was one of those, “not part of the re-alignment” and in March, this mama was home with her babies (16 months and 8 yrs).

While the title of this post says  Stay-at-Home, it should be more like Work-At-Home. Thankfully, I started doing some freelance work last year so when I left the company, I immediately started working on creating my own company.

I just don’t know how much work was actually done during my first month at home to warrant the work-at-home title.

 

Week 1 of my first month as a stay at home Mom went something like:

 

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No really, this is what I felt like! Plus, it was  Spring Break (lucky me). We visited some friends out of state and for once it was great coming home and not stress about preparing for the week ahead. Lunches? Nah, I’ll do those in the morning.

Positives this week: Everything

Negatives: Nada.

Week 2:

Still in the honeymoon phase, I was eagerly happy to be fulfilling all the house duties that I would otherwise be neglecting had I been working my 8-5.

 I’m not sure where the week went, but I only managed to do half of what I set out to do! Whatever! It’s early in my new role and I was still in the honeymoon phase. So I tell myself , “ It’s my first week, I’ll find my groove.”

The hardest decision for me this week was figuring out what to make for dinner.

Positives this week:

Waking up at 6am for some Mommy time, meditation, coffee and email check (ie. Facebook).

I spent time with my little man and I did school drop-offs and pick-ups. Some of you reading this probably loaf these duties but I’m new here, remember!?

The fact that I wasn’t coming home after 5pm also meant that the evenings were more enjoyable and my kitchen actually looked presentable the next morning.

Negatives:

Morning meditations ended here.

I wore workout gear almost everyday and while it appeared that I was headed to the gym after school drop-off,  I wasn’t.

I haven’t gone to the gym – even once.

Week 3:

I’m still kickin’ it with my little man and chillin’ in my workout wear.

By week three I remember that I actually have work to do. At least now I have a good reason for going to Starbucks almost everyday – Mommy gotta work!

Dinner time and evenings were a piece of cake.

Positives: EVERYTHING! THIS IS AMAZING!

Negatives: I missed a submission deadline for a site I contribute to and I can’t recall why.

Another week passed without me me practicing my morning meditations. Sigh.

Week 4:

Husband says, you need to come up with some sort of schedule.

Me  (completely on the defense):  I am! This is about the time when I find myself on YouTube watching routines of other Moms who stay at home and work. Don’t judge me! Some of those videos get hundred-thousand views, so I know I’m not alone in this.

In my YouTube ventures I find that many times their little one naps for 2 hours. I haven’t seen a 2-hour nap from my wild 19-month old the entire time I’ve been home!

I’m hearing it can take me as much as 4-6 months to find my schedule. Yes, I Googled that too.

Positives:  I’m alive and everyone is happy that I’m home more. However, this is starting to translate to: Mommy can do it all.

I’m making progress on my business and establishing a client base.

Negatives:

Little man now goes to Grandma’s 2 days a week so Mommy can actually get some work done. Is this a negative? I’m not so sure right now.

I’m on YouTube way too much.

My early 6am morning rise is starting to look more like 6:45 am or 7 am.

This month was everything and nothing that I had expected.

I quickly came to realize that staying at home with kids is much harder than any 8-5 job. At the same time, I realize that I never (ever) want to go back to the corporate world. It will take some major mojo, self-discipline and hustle for me to be able to stay home as I grow my business.

The second month gets even more interesting.  I had my first Mommy breakdown, started second guessing my decisions and my self-assurance was tanking. Stay tuned.

First month as a stay home Mom

I share tons more stories about my imperfect parenting here!

June 14, 2017
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Dear Bandit – A Letter for You in Heaven

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Dear Bandit,

Hey big boy, it’s your mama.

The night is setting in and you’re not here. This morning I caught myself  scooping up 2 servings of food  As much as Mia would have liked that extra serving, I know she would rather be eating breakfast with you. I wonder what you’re doing right now? How is doggy heaven? I’m sure you are running with no pain and eating endless amounts of cheese. 

Having to say goodbye  to you yesterday was harder than we could have ever imagined. You don’t know this, but I’ve only seen your Dad really cry – twice. You may think it was on our wedding day or the day the kids were born. However neither of those are it. One of the times was yesterday.  The day we had to say goodbye to you. 

Years ago your Dad and I  talked about what we would do when “that” day came. He said there was no way he could be there while you sleep into your  heavenly home. He didn’t want to see it happen. Then one day at work, a friend and I were talking about our fur babies and somehow the subject came up. I told her how he felt unsure about being there during those last moments.  The next day she gave me a poem that I shared with him. It was from a dogs perspective regarding his Last Battle. One of the lines said: 

“….Only, stay with me till the end
And hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.”

 

 

Yesterday, we honored you and our responsibilities to you. Nothing would have prevented us from being there with you. We held you, kissed you and whispered in your ear. I’m not sure if you remember your head on Daddy’s lap. Your paw in my hand. And my face nestled over yours.

Bandit, you gave us so much in the last 14 years. And while you could have gone to another home, you came into our home. We were a couple of barely 20-something kids who just bought a new home and wanted a fur baby. You grew up with us and even though our hearts are broken, we will honor you.  We promise to love again and take in another dog with either no hope or home. I’m not sure they will lick Mia’s ears like you did, but they can have  breakfast together.

Goodnight Muffin. WE LOVE YOU.

 

 

 

The Last Battle

If it should be that I grow frail and weak
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then will you do what must be done,
For this — the last battle — can’t be won.
You will be sad I understand,
But don’t let grief then stay your hand,
For on this day, more than the rest,
Your love and friendship must stand the test.

We have had so many happy years,
You wouldn’t want me to suffer so.
When the time comes, please, let me go.
Take me to where to my needs they’ll tend,
Only, stay with me till the end
And hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.

I know in time you will agree
It is a kindness you do to me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I have been saved.
Don’t grieve that it must be you
Who has to decide this thing to do;
We’ve been so close — we two — these years,
Don’t let your heart hold any tears.

    – author unknown

 

 

 

 

 

May 17, 2017
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Last Minute Mother’s Day Gift Ideas from Kids and Adults

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Just because Mother’s Day is a week away doesn’t mean you still can’t give her something great for Mother’s Day. I’m a total last-minute shopper so these unique and last minute Mother’s Day gift ideas are somewhat self-serving.

 

 

UniqueMothersDayideas

 

 

  1. The Boss Cup & tons of other cute options from Amazon that you’ll get in time. It’s an entire collection that fits all types of Moms.
  2. Wrap bracelet for the boho Moms from Boho Betty. Get 20% with special code: REBELSOULMOM.
  3. Flowers (and reasonable price from Amazon) – Prime and One Day Available!
  4. Wall Art
  5. Mom Chalkboard Wall Art  – This is currently on sale as of 5/7/17 & has one-day shipping!
  6. BOHO Betty Earrings – For the minimalist
  7. Dogeared Going Places Disc Chain Necklace – There are other options with different theme’s, such as “One in a Million”, (also Prime)!
  8. Edgy Wrap Bracelet –  For the modern and edgy Mama.
  9. Spa Gift Sets – There are affordable options that start at $20 and qualifies for Prime and One-Day Prime!

Hope this helps at least spark some last minute ideas. Yes, these are affiliate links to items that I think make great gifts for  all the amazing Moms out there. This has the official Rebel Soul Mom approval. Happy Shopping!

 

Extra Tip: Check out this post on how I get EXTRA cash back on these purchases through Ebates. 

May 8, 2017
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