Dear Bandit – A Letter for You in Heaven

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Dear Bandit,

Hey big boy, it’s your mama.

The night is setting in and you’re not here. This morning I caught myself  scooping up 2 servings of food  As much as Mia would have liked that extra serving, I know she would rather be eating breakfast with you. I wonder what you’re doing right now? How is doggy heaven? I’m sure you are running with no pain and eating endless amounts of cheese. 

Having to say goodbye  to you yesterday was harder than we could have ever imagined. You don’t know this, but I’ve only seen your Dad really cry – twice. You may think it was on our wedding day or the day the kids were born. However neither of those are it. One of the times was yesterday.  The day we had to say goodbye to you. 

Years ago your Dad and I  talked about what we would do when “that” day came. He said there was no way he could be there while you sleep into your  heavenly home. He didn’t want to see it happen. Then one day at work, a friend and I were talking about our fur babies and somehow the subject came up. I told her how he felt unsure about being there during those last moments.  The next day she gave me a poem that I shared with him. It was from a dogs perspective regarding his Last Battle. One of the lines said: 

“….Only, stay with me till the end
And hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.”



Yesterday, we honored you and our responsibilities to you. Nothing would have prevented us from being there with you. We held you, kissed you and whispered in your ear. I’m not sure if you remember your head on Daddy’s lap. Your paw in my hand. And my face nestled over yours.

Bandit, you gave us so much in the last 14 years. And while you could have gone to another home, you came into our home. We were a couple of barely 20-something kids who just bought a new home and wanted a fur baby. You grew up with us and even though our hearts are broken, we will honor you.  We promise to love again and take in another dog with either no hope or home. I’m not sure they will lick Mia’s ears like you did, but they can have  breakfast together.

Goodnight Muffin. WE LOVE YOU.




The Last Battle

If it should be that I grow frail and weak
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then will you do what must be done,
For this — the last battle — can’t be won.
You will be sad I understand,
But don’t let grief then stay your hand,
For on this day, more than the rest,
Your love and friendship must stand the test.

We have had so many happy years,
You wouldn’t want me to suffer so.
When the time comes, please, let me go.
Take me to where to my needs they’ll tend,
Only, stay with me till the end
And hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.

I know in time you will agree
It is a kindness you do to me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I have been saved.
Don’t grieve that it must be you
Who has to decide this thing to do;
We’ve been so close — we two — these years,
Don’t let your heart hold any tears.

    – author unknown






May 17, 2017
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  • Reply Christina Pilat

    I started crying in the first paragraph. I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s never easy to lose a pet, especially a dog who does nothing but love you. A few years ago I lost my best fur-friend totally unexpectedly and it gutted me. Even our other dog was depressed. There was nothing to do except be sad and mourn the loss of a good boy. I wish you best and hope that you can open your heart and home to another dog in the future. <3

    May 20, 2017 at 6:38 pm
    • Reply pinklemonsandrainbows

      Thanks so much! I can’t imagine it being unexpected 🙁 I think me writing this letter was a way to honor him and keep his memory alive. Thanks for reading

      May 22, 2017 at 1:40 am
    • Reply Jessica

      Thanks so much for your kind words 🙂

      June 16, 2017 at 2:18 pm
  • Reply Kim

    Wow! I knew that would be hard four me to read, but how beautifully written! We had to put my cat to sleep 4/29/16, and after raising him for 8 years, my heart was destroyed! As soon as I adopted my cat, I knew saying goodbye to him would be beyond tough! Thinking of you and your family!

    May 20, 2017 at 7:28 pm
    • Reply pinklemonsandrainbows

      Thank you Kim – Everyone says how hard it but you really never are prepared for it. I can totally relate – putting our loved pets to sleep is not an easy decision. Thank you for reading!

      May 22, 2017 at 1:41 am
  • Reply Mark

    I had to read this with small breaks. Thanks for sharing. I will have to make a decision very soon for my Rocky. Sorry for you lost cuz!

    May 23, 2017 at 6:08 am
    • Reply Jessica

      Mark – how are you doing? We just got Bandit back from the Vet ( we got him cremated) Been thinking about you…. (((hugs)))

      June 2, 2017 at 3:01 pm
      • Reply Marcos

        Thank you cuz! We also got our dog cremated. We should get him back soon. All the best!

        June 2, 2017 at 3:54 pm

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