As you know the wonderful hair loss started this week. Today was time to shave it all off. I will try my best to encapsulate all my emotions in this post.
The plan was for my best friend Amanda to come pick me up at 9am. Gianna had stayed the night at her house so the girls wanted to come with me. A part me hesitated but it was Gianna’s idea. I made the decision that no matter what it was, I was not going to leave her out of something that she really wanted to see or be a part of throughout this chapter in my life. With my nausea medicine and fruit smoothie in tow, I was ready to go. Here we are 4 girls off to do something that most women never think about doing. How many 4 and 8 year olds get to experience this? How many 4 and 8 year olds get to see two best friends of over 15 years share a moment like this. Not many-and for that we will all come out of Miss Pauline’s with a greater appreciation for life, friendships and hair. The first thing Miss Pauline did was give the girls a task. They were to seperate all the headbands and barrets. For their hard work the girls would each get to pick a headband out. Imagine the story of those headbands 10 years from now.
Now time for my task. Too sit there and just deal with the fact that I will have LESS hair. Feeling the clippers on my head freaked me out a little. This is def a moment in which I wanted to scream DAMN YOU CANCER. I kept looking at Manda’s face to gauge the horror, disgust and sadness. She did tear up but I saw none of these words on her face. Good job Mandy pants for keeping it together. I kept asking her what Gianna was doing. Is she looking at me? How do you think she’s taking it? I honestly couldn’t tell you what was going through Gianna mind. I just know that she was having fun and smiling. I could tell that she didn’t want to just sit there and watch her Mommy’s hair slowly dissappear, but that’s understandable. When it was all done I did not like what I saw in the mirror but it wasn’t as bad as I thought. I kinda look like Sinead O’ Conner (is that her name/spelling?) I put on my wig and off we went.
As soon as I got home I took a nap (a must for me nowadays). We were having a pool day and Kendal is spending the night, so this girl needs her Zzzz’s. When I got up from my nap I put on my “hat with hair” but, Justin kept asking me why I don’t just wear my scarf. “You look cute with the scarf”, he said. Can’t say that I 100% believe him but I’ll take it. We had a wonderful day and I even swam in the pool and enjoyed seeing the girls play. In their eyes-I’m so lucky because I get to pick out whatever hair I want. God love children. If we see things through their eyes more…its Easy Peasy as Gianna would say.