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As you know the wonderful hair loss started this week. Today was time to shave it all off. I will try my best to encapsulate all my emotions in this post.

The plan was for my best friend Amanda to come pick me up at 9am. Gianna had stayed the night at her house so the girls wanted to come with me. A part me hesitated but it was Gianna’s idea. I made the decision that no matter what it was, I was not going to leave her out of something that she really wanted to see or be a part of throughout this chapter in my life. With my nausea medicine and fruit smoothie in tow, I was ready to go. Here we are 4 girls off to do something that most women never think about doing. How many 4 and 8 year olds get to experience this? How many 4 and 8 year olds get to see two best friends of over 15 years share a moment like this. Not many-and for that we will all come out of Miss Pauline’s with a greater appreciation for life, friendships and hair. The first thing Miss Pauline did was give the girls a task. They were to seperate all the headbands and barrets. For their hard work the girls would each get to pick a headband out. Imagine the story of those headbands 10 years from now.

Now time for my task. Too sit there and just deal with the fact that I will have LESS hair. Feeling the clippers on my head freaked me out a little. This is def a moment in which I wanted to scream DAMN YOU CANCER. I kept looking at Manda’s face to gauge the horror, disgust and sadness. She did tear up but I saw none of these words on her face. Good job Mandy pants for keeping it together. I kept asking her what Gianna was doing. Is she looking at me? How do you think she’s taking it? I honestly couldn’t tell you what was going through Gianna mind. I just know that she was having fun and smiling. I could tell that she didn’t want to just sit there and watch her Mommy’s hair slowly dissappear, but that’s understandable. When it was all done I did not like what I saw in the mirror but it wasn’t as bad as I thought. I kinda look like Sinead O’ Conner (is that her name/spelling?) I put on my wig and off we went.

As soon as I got home I took a nap (a must for me nowadays). We were having a pool day and Kendal is spending the night, so this girl needs her Zzzz’s. When I got up from my nap I put on my “hat with hair” but, Justin kept asking me why I don’t just wear my scarf. “You look cute with the scarf”, he said. Can’t say that I 100% believe him but I’ll take it. We had a wonderful day and I even swam in the pool and enjoyed seeing the girls play. In their eyes-I’m so lucky because I get to pick out whatever hair I want. God love children. If we see things through their eyes more…its Easy Peasy as Gianna would say.

Please visit Miss Pauline’s Facebook page and show her some love. If you’re in need of a wig or extension visit her website here. 

June 16, 2013
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  • Reply Andrea

    Jess, you are an amazing writer! I felt as if I were sitting there with you all during this experience! Thank you so much for sharing this with us! Muah! Xoxo

    June 16, 2013 at 1:08 am
  • Reply Julie Harris

    So proud of you and the courage you have! When all is done we will have that toast with Miss Pauline! Pink champagne! XOXO

    June 16, 2013 at 1:52 am
  • Reply Alisha


    June 16, 2013 at 5:20 am
  • Reply Amanda Griffin

    ICA- I couldn’t imagine being anywhere else then with you in my old “neck of the woods” witnessing first hand how amazingly strong you are…. With that said, as I was watching Pauline buzz your hair I had a some thoughts running through my head… 1) dang I am so proud of her,she is getting through this so much better then expected. 2) omg your big brown eyes are beautiful!! 3) dang, getting ready is going to be “easy peasy” 😉 4) I hope if I ever go through something like this I will have the strength to be as strong as you.

    The girls did a awesome job! And hearing Gianna tell you on the way home “mommy, I love you…” Still melts my heart as it replays in my head.

    I love you girlie. Thank you for including Kendal and I… Another memory for us to put in the books! XOXO

    June 17, 2013 at 1:59 am
    • Reply pinklemonsandrainbows

      I love all your “dang’s”. I honestly forgot Gianna telling me that on the way home-so glad you wrote that. I LOVE YOU. Thank you for being there for me-although I knew you would be every step of the way. We already knew we had lots of stories and this is just another one. I LOVE YOU MANDY PANTS xoxoxo

      June 17, 2013 at 8:50 pm
  • Reply Desiree Quintana

    What an empowering memory for Gianna. I am so happy you had Amanda there. Thinking about you and praying for you every day. XOXOX Desiree

    June 20, 2013 at 10:48 pm
  • Reply tammycarmona

    My husband would rather me wear a scarf. I have a couple of beautiful wigs, they. Are just so hot! I think being bald gets easier with time. Embrace it, your beautiful!

    June 21, 2013 at 10:10 pm
    • Reply pinklemonsandrainbows

      That’s sweet 🙂 They are very hot! It def will take time….I’m only on week 1 of no hair (or Less hair) I prefer to say that! Hope your treatments are going good too.

      June 22, 2013 at 11:42 pm
  • Reply Cancer in My Thirties

    Thanks so much for following my blog… I’m so glad your follow brought me to yours.
    I’m so sorry for what you are going through. You captured this experience so well. I’m sure your words will bring comfort to other women who are scared and don’t know what to expect.
    And though it would have been much nicer to share a spa day — or any other day! — with your girls, I’m sure they will one day look back on this experience and feel grateful that you shared it with them. And I’m sure they will be so proud of their brave Mom.
    “Damn You, Cancer” is right. Thinking of you…

    June 23, 2013 at 5:19 am
    • Reply pinklemonsandrainbows

      I saw “cancer in my thirties” and I was at your blog! I find myself getting lost in the blog world for hours now. Its nice to follow the similar journey that other women are facing. 🙂

      June 23, 2013 at 4:24 pm
      • Reply Cancer in My Thirties

        I agree! I don’t know what women in our shoes did before the internet! 😉
        Thinking of you!

        June 25, 2013 at 1:44 am
  • Reply tgouthro

    So interesting to read this just a few weeks after shaving my own head. Courage, friend. We are on very similar paths. Sending you good vibes, and creativity with the new headgear.

    June 27, 2013 at 12:02 am
    • Reply pinklemonsandrainbows

      We are! My third treatment is tomorrow. Luv your pink wig!! I haven’t worn mine anywhere yet, but its fun to have. I’m still exploring with the headgear and trying to find my style…we have to make this fun right? Sending good vibes back at you!!

      June 27, 2013 at 12:49 am
  • Reply Theresa Conley

    I am reading all of your posts – they are so honest and real that it just brings tears to my eyes. You are amazing and what an experience with your daughter. Wow is all I can say. You rock girl – keep up the posts and know you have all these people behind you. xoxo

    July 9, 2013 at 2:13 am
    • Reply pinklemonsandrainbows

      🙂 Thanks…that means a lot! i’m TRYING to be as honest as possible! XOXOXO

      July 9, 2013 at 11:12 pm

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