The last weekend for a couple weekends

I’m catching up on my blog, so this is actually last weekend-the last weekend before starting chemo:

 

Hello to the weekend before I start my chemo (5/26/13). Why is it so significant? I have no idea. But I’ll be sure to let you know if it was such a big deal as I think it is. My Friday night was spent in Ybor with my cousins, followed by a weekend at the beach with the fam. My spirits are really good right now, so while this feeling is here- I’m going to take advantage of it.

Saturday comes and my spirits are high & positive. We are down in Siesta Key enjoying the sun, water & family time. Last night after everyone went to bed I really started thinking about the whole losing my hair process. I want to know what I will look like. I also worry about that moment when I first see myself in the mirror with no hair. What if I can’t even look at myself in the mirror? It makes me sad to think that for the next 6-9 months I will be hiding a big part of me-even from Justin & Gianna. I’ve read stories where some girls NEVER showed anyone their bald head. For someone who is an open book and very straightforward with those around me, hiding this seems so daunting & exhausting. I wanted to get a “sneak peak” into this new look that I will have, so I went online looking for an app or website that would show you what you look like bald. We found an app and Justin downloaded it, took my picture. My first thought was that I look like me with just no hair. Sounds pretty simple, right? But in the flesh may be a different story. I must say that it felt very normal and very comfortable playing around with this app. Anyhoo, I guess I’ll soon find out how accurate the picture was. This weekend was full of new memories and rainbows. Have I told you already what an amazing man I married?  🙂

 

June 1, 2013
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  • Reply Gail

    Justin is the salt of the earth as we have shared that our husband’s are cut from the same cloth. YOU are in great hands with him by your side.

    June 1, 2013 at 8:40 pm
  • Reply Ann Shephard

    As women we need to remember we are not our hair, or our breasts or anything that is physical. At our core women are all heart. Love you!

    June 1, 2013 at 10:39 pm
  • Reply Maria Brennan

    Hey…it is summertime, and the hot flashes are unbearable for me…I think you and I can start a new trend…I got my razor ready!!! Just say the word!

    June 1, 2013 at 11:34 pm
  • Reply patricia mateus

    I know we only know each other from school. Never hung out together but thanks to fb everyone stays connected. I just want to let u know that I will be praying for you and your family. best wishes during this though process.

    June 2, 2013 at 11:44 am
  • Reply pinklemonsandrainbows

    i haven’t gotten the hot flashes yet, but I know its coming! Razors, wigs and fun scarves i guess.

    June 2, 2013 at 7:54 pm
    • Reply Maria Brennan

      Don’t forget…”Sexy Booo-jwah” Hats!! Do YOUknow how to spell it!!???

      June 4, 2013 at 6:31 pm
  • Reply grandmusi

    Your Aunt Maricela is now also your pink Sister!
    Know of my prayers and best wishes……….I have been there and back
    this is my 5th year of survival.
    Quintana women are survivors………and prayed for….I am a product of the power of prayer and you will be, too…

    June 6, 2013 at 5:03 pm
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